(cliffs at the end) ok so theres this girl that im madly in love with. not infatuation or whatever, im in love. she loves me back. i would do anything for her, i would die for her. she currently had a boyfriend that is living in another country. shes cheated on him with me, but she says how she loves us both.... blah blah blah. she has been my first everything; kiss, sex, etc... and i cant stand being away from her. ive started making excuses to my other friends to not hang out with them so i can be with her. she is a year ahead of me, going into college, while im stuck at home finishing up my last year of highschool. its down to the point of not even being a contest between me and her current boyfriend, she says. shes saying how she dwants to live college, and not do what she did in highschool, and making herself an outcast. she says how she would want to be talking to me all the time, and not do anything else. i told her thats not how it would be, because we will both be busy... we would text during the day, talk at night, and see eachother on weekends. shes used to think kind of relationship, because she only sees her BF ever few months, for maybe a week. i love her so much, and whenever i think about us not ending up together, my stomache drops, and i feel like i want to cry and just stop living. i want her to be happy, but i also want to be happy, and i dont know how else i can be happy without her in my life. we always talk about how we want to marry eachother, and what we want to do when we get married, etc. she seems so serious about it when we talk about it, then i tihnk about it, and i ask myself how can any of that happen if we arent together now, and we wont be until who knows when with college and all. i want to spend the rest of my life with this girl, and she feels the same way about me (from what she tells me) but i just dont know how it could work out if shes not letting us be together. i just dont know what to do.im never going to get over her. i cant stop thinking about her. i stay up late at night thinking about her and me and how perfect we are together. she told me how she doesnt want to go into college dealing with this, she just wants to focus on her classes. i told her it was her fault for dragging this out. we were ready to be together a week before prom (her bf came down for that) then she became attached, and felt how she would miss being without him. then that wore off, and its back to 'i love you so fucking much i need to be with you', but her parents spent 500$ on plane tickets for her to go see him in a few weeks. now im scared that the same thing is going to happen. shes going to come back all attached.... i told her this, and she said not to worry. im like 'wtf does that mean' she like 'i will still love you when i come back'.... well thats nice, but i need to be with you i just dont know waht the fuck to do. basically i need her to feel a reason to wake up in the morning. otherwise i have nothing to live for. my other friends suck, because all they want to do is play video games, never leave their house. in my town, its impossible to change your friends this far along, so im fucked with that. i just want to die, or fall asleep and never wake up. cliffs: guy LOVES girl. girl LOVES guy. girl has a BF and is going to college. girl wants to live in college, and not be distracted, and is torn between"the two best guys in the world" guy needs this girl in order to want to live. guy wants to die right now though. guy needs help/support/ideas on how to 'woo', for lack of a better word , this girl into realizing it would all work out for us.