I am very depressed and moody all the time. I just don't give a shit about anything anymore. I can't go out and have a good time without feeling down and also at the same time act like an asshole to everyone. I am loosing friends because they don't want to be around me and my shitty attitude. Nothing has changed since my early twenties, 20-21. I am 26 now going on 27. I still live with the parents. I have a shitty job that only pays $8.50 an hour and I work 45 to 50 hrs a week. I rarely have any energy or time to do the things I like. I just come home tired and watch the time fly by. I have only been in one serious relationship that lasted 3 months and that was when I was 24. I suck with women because I have a lame personality and I have no humor. I just don't have much too look forward to anymore since the last 6 to 7 yrs of my life has been pretty much the same. The next 6 or 7 yrs are looking like the same lame mundane life. I wish I could just off myself but I am too much of a bitch to actually go through with it. I am in a version of "hell on earth". All these troubles I am having are even more difficult due to the fact I have learning disabilities and I am starting to see how it's affecting my life. For those that don't what LD is, it means you have a mild form of "retardation". I am living proof what people need to stop doing, intervene the actions of god/nature. I was supposed to die before birth but thanks to "mans intervention" I have to live out this shitty life that will be miserable, alone, and depressing while I am tormented day by day to see all the "normal" people function fine in life.