My fucking father, has what the doctors call "alcohol dementia." This morning he called me dead sober to tell me (for the second time in his life) with iron resolve in his voice that he would quit drinking. My guess is that this means he will cheat "just a little" by the time I get home, and then hit the bottle in full force and have an accident where he splits his head open from falling down drunk in the street and goes to the hospital. I have a job this summer from 9-5:30 and I have college the rest of the year, which is a full-time endeavour in a different state. I will not be able to deal with his problems at all. I'm not even able to deal with them right now. For example, we've got this in home nurse to look after him. She brought a friend over this afternoon, so my father, in his infinite wisdom, being generally distrustful of the woman in the first place, called the cops on the two of them. At that point, a neighbor showed up who was perfectly lucid to see what the deal was, and the housecare woman went out to "get groceries." She has not returned since, the dumb fucking bitch. I should punch her flat face in. Meanwhile I have to wait until 5:30 before I can go give my theoretically sober father some moral support. It will be 11 o'clock pm when I can see my girlfriend. That said, I continue to be sexually frustrated and I have nothing on my plate at work right now. This leaves me in front of a computer screen stewing in my own personal shit. I don't have any lubricant, and since I'm circumcised (thx ma), I can't go jerk off in the bathroom stall, which I've been threatening to myself that I would do since I got here this morning before realizing that it wasn't really feasible. Things I would really like: * Renewal of girlfriend's libido * A goddamn fucking foreskin, or some lubricant * Either the mental recovery of my father, or his immediate painless death * Some work to do Thank you for listening.