LGBT I am thoroughly confused, looking for insight maybe?

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  1. magik

    magik New Member

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    So, long story short: I have no idea what orientation I am anymore. I thought I was bi, then lesbian, then back to bi again, and now I just don't seem to be attracted to men anymore (again). I kinda sorta have a boyfriend (we've been on the rocks for a while now) and I just never want to have sex with him, I've tried to get myself into the mood but it just doesn't happen, I don't even care to watch straight porn anymore!

    I've been into girls since a very young age, way before I was attracted to men. I found my father's Playboy when I was 4-5 and I used to steal it and masturbate (yes I learned young). I had sex with a girl for the first time when I was 7 - I guess we learned everything from porn because I have no idea, to this day, how we knew what to do. I was only with girls from then until I was 16.

    I've dated a lot of girls and had a great time. It's like having a best friend and an SO, I can talk to them about anything and they seem to totally get me, being a woman and all. I've really never had a problem in a female/female relationship, it seems the problems only arise when it's with a male.

    At this point I'm completely confused and I don't want to give up on men completely, but at this point, I really see no reason or want to be with a man.
     
  2. novo

    novo Pokey Man OT Supporter

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    Don't get hung up on labels.

    Just be honest with yourself and others and do whatever you need to make yourself happy. :)
     
  3. Josey

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    fluidity is the best course of action...

    but I would try and let go of all stigma's you have against your male/female relationships and try to see if you can enjoy one...if not...find yourself a hottie w/some nice tittahs and have fun... ;)
     
  4. magik

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    Eh, I wouldn't say it's a stigma per say, just what I've experienced. I've had several straight and lesbian relationships and it's always the ones with the males then end horribly.

    And for the past month or two I haven't been interested in men at all, I find myself actually making up excuses to get out of hanging out with males I know are looking to be more than friends.
     
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    well then...I say find yourself a hottie and have fun. don't let it be a reason to beat urself up..and let the one's that wanna be more know you're taken and not looking or that you've just realized you don't have any desire to be in a relationship with a guy and if they can't handle it there's the door...
     
  6. Sam Gamgee

    Sam Gamgee Every tool is a weapon if you hold it right. OT Supporter

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    I agree with novo

    Don't worry about defining yourself just now... Just find someone who you connect with and have fun.

    Let all the other shit take care of itself.
     
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  8. magik

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    I guess I'm just overly concerned right now because I'm in love with a guy but I am not really attracted to him anymore. All I think about is women, even in my sleep I have a lesbian dream at least once a week. It's driving me mad having to turn the guy down for sex every night because I don't like seeing him 'upset', but I'm just not interested anymore.
     
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    like I said in FS...I think you answered you're question w/your friends party...if you get that excited...just let the guy go...
     
  10. magik

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    Yeah, probably so. That and girls make me more nervous than guys do, I don't care about looking good in front of them, I just want to impress the girls haha.

    The guy and I are pretty much broken up anyhow, we've been slowly drifting apart and he wants us to move into separate places once the lease is up at the end of this month. So, I guess that's it hah.
     
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    Pretty much girl..good luck tho hon...
     
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    Thanks, hopefully I'll get to this party next weekend and I'll bag me a cute one haha.
     
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    I'm sure you'll have no problem baggin you a hottie
     
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    <|Mitch|> New Member

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    don't live for someone else.

    your life is about you, you don't get a 2nd chance. if women makes you happy go for women if men makes you happy then go for men, if both makes you happy then go for both.

    find what makes you happy and go all out ;)

    don't waste your time of what about this and that, you know what you want, don't let anything or anyone stop you :big grin:
     
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    Unless its designer couture.
     
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    I agree with the no label responses. Sexuality isn't black and white.

    Personally I really hate the bi label the most and to be honest I used to identify myself as a bi women (bi curious before that). I loved my (2) ex boyfriends, but I have no desire to be with a man ever again and it makes me kinda feel like a fraud is someone calls me a lesbian. BUT if I don't want to be with men again, then maybe I'm a lesbian, if I needed a label? Hahaha :explode:
     

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