I am starting to get depressed with life. I am 21 years old and here is my sitatuion Situation 1 1. I graduated with a BSc in Ecology and Conservation Biology like 3 months ago and i can't get a job. This is a lot due to the recession and I am starting to get depressed 2. I am enrolling into masters and hoping to ride the recession out and graduate with master in Ecology and Conservation Biology, but i don't even know if that will garentee me a job. Although it would put me in aiming position for my masters 3. I have never really lived life. I have a great group of friends and despite being from overseas i yearn to travel, but I am so busy with study and I am paranoid about missing the boat and not being able to get into masters when i get back that i have to do it now. 4. I will probably ending up for a corporation i hate and whose ideologies i hate to get a job by cleaning up there mess. My Question for this section is. a)Is my plan to study masters during the recession a good idea? b)Travelling one day is my hope and dream but i don't see it happening in the near future, this makes me really depressed. c) Do most people work for a company whose ideals and practices fly in the face of what you beleive in, and how do you get by if that is my most probably way of making a living... Situation 2 1. I am a really fun guy to my friends and everyone, especially drunk on the town with them but there is a more sobre side to me, I am fairly political (not in a leftist/right wing sense) I am more of an anarchist. I am not a punker (although i listen to punk music) I dress normally and do stuff everyone does. 2. My beleifs on the world are similar to that of the Unabomber manifesto. I am not an activist, i keep my ideas to myself and only my closest friends know a scratch of what i beleive. I am nervous they will look at my different for my beleifs. 3. My beleifs are depressing to me and I see myself as no more than a tiny amount of particles within the universe. My favorite scientists have said some words on the matter that cheer me up for example Carl Sagan: "To live on in the hearts of others is to never die". But i find the constant purposelessness of industrial society demeaning to me and humans in general, not to mention the environmental damage it has exacted on other miraculous products of evolution. My Question for this section is. a) do any other people have depressing beleifs or ideologies that are depressing to them and why do you keep them? Even if they make sense to you? I hope im not alone with this b) I am totally against industrial society but will probably end up working for the system as another cog in the corporate machine, does anyone else have similar beleifs and how do they justify what they do for a living if this is so?