Yes, I know, everyone will say it's impossible. I just need some more insight. Ok situation: Me and girl who used to like me in highschool start to talk a year or so ago. Date for a few months and then stop things. She has a fear of commitment and doesn't want it. So we end up in this cycle where we will get really close and then she'll back away. Bad part about this is my feelings grew more and more each time, hopeful she will realize what she has in front of her. (wishfull eh?). I have pretty much become dependent on her. We recently went thru another cycle where she wants to back off and be friends (but hook up once and a while I assume). I finally snapped and told her I can't just be friends. She knows I am in love with her, but she never let herself get to that point. I tried to do the not talking to her thing, but we always float back together... Recently she went on a trip with her family to NM for 9 days. It has driven me crazy and I just started to realize how pathetic I am over a girl who doesn't want me how I want her. It's a weird relationship...it's like we are together and the actions she takes just show more than sex. We've talked about it and she says she has the potential to love me, but cant let herself at this time and age. Makes it even worse, we are really best friends. So after realizing how pathetic I am, I've decided I am going to put all the "I miss you's" away and just be her friend. Not show her the attention that a boyfriend would and just try to be friends. Not waiting for her to come around like I have before. I need to move on, but not lose my best friend...or at least let it fade away.