It seems like everything in my life is just fucked. My job is about to run out of work for me, and I'll be back, to bartending with a bs in emergency management, and a bs in geography. I don't really have the motivation to take a job ripping people off in sales, and though I'm 25 I look like a child so no one really takes me seriously, regardless of my attitude. I want a job where I get to help people, but I don't want to take a paycut down to like $22,000 to stay in the emergency management industry. I'm in the best shape of my life, and haven't met a woman in years. I put on 70lb in a year, and am happy with my body for the first time in my life, but women still don't really want shit to do with me. I haven't had a relationship in almost 6 years. I've been out with one girl a few times over the last year, and I'm not at all interested in her, I just want to meet someone new, but thats not possible. I feel like I'll never be happy, and this almost holiday I've enjoyed making good money and a real job where I can think to get payed, rather than be a machine, has been great. I can't go back to school because I can't afford it. I can't take a job where I have to move, because I'm stuck in a lease. This shit sucks. I don't want to kill myself or anything, but I don't necessarily want to go on living a life of total discomfort. WTF can I do?