I am pretty much treatment refractory and the last two years has been considered as being experimental. I've had some good scripts which worked but brought about horrible akatheisia and when taken a combination of drugs it didn't just stop the akatathesia it stopped the drug dead. I had some relative success with Gabapentin but after taking penacilin I got neuropathy in one fingure, the Pregablin made it far worse. Now I'm on Verapamil and Depakote and it seemed to work but after a rash and the belief I wa having an allergic reaction I went all out to kill myself, little did I know that I would in the end. Turned out it was a viral infection, after two weeks however my mood became unstable, I had symptoms of a fever and ones that are particular to ARS including rash on feet and neuropathy/parathesis on hands and feet. I have found that i have had to both up my drugs and add new ones at a time where iit should be that I dont', typically it doesn't happen this fast. I have no sex life so exposure is non existant but am coming down with illnesses I never did before. Lots of coughing, lots of allergies to drugs (ones I need and have no alts to). I have better access to meds here than in the UK due to price but due to this half ass contry jailing people for suicide attempts and giving no help lines what am I meant to do? I have a good sized script of certain researched drugs and am one step away. Loved the site and if I don't reply consider this my last post.