After having my surgery on about 5 weeks ago I am ready to almost start lifting again. Needless to say I have dropped some muscle mass and fat. Due to only having class twice a week on tuesdays and thursdays I have serious procrastination problems and have needed to take hardcore stimulants like 60mg of adderall non-time release at one time in order to do my homework/study the day before tests. Yes I know Im a shithead for doing such things (as well as smoking and drinking.) The only real solution I guess is to quit taking them (not addicted to anything yet luckily) but what can I do to get me ready for school besides staying up late the night before. I still have good grades but it is really fucking me up. Any recoverer's? mEds 02-08-2005, 06:22 AM Ironically my grades have shot up dramaticlaly since high school despite massive usage of physically "not good" things. mEds 02-08-2005, 06:25 AM I have also used massive amounts of ephedrine in a day (like up to 325mg) and (1000mg caffeine) and ritalin. Could this be a borderline stimulant addiction? I definitely do not want kidney failure or heart disease anytime soon. On the plus I excercise every day but somedays eat really really unhealthy foods (but not excessive calories.) mEds 02-08-2005, 06:42 AM another thing is that I was actually able to quit taking ALL stimulants except for maybe caffeine in diet soda for a month (2weeks before and after surgery) no problem; but, now I "desire" to take something every day... as I did before my surgery... mEds 02-08-2005, 06:52 AM Sorry for the multiple posts but I first got started on these things in january 2004 when I started to lose over 100lbs of fat (and am currently 12%bodyfat) and these things are I almost feel/felt necessary to curb my hunger/give me energy for what food should be fore. However, I am so afraid and paranoid of gaining fat that I take these. Like I said I do excercise EVERY SINGLE DAY but if I don't take these sometimes the pain is so severe psychologically that I cannot control myself- which is sometimes why I take them. Even when I eat clean (salads, low fat, no sugar, slightly low carb and high protein) I still pretty much need these things. I used to be around 305lbs than went down to a pale weak 190lbs than back to a strong muscular but (small pockets of fat) 220lbs and am currently a semi-muscular 203lb 18yearold 6'04" male. Again all help is greatly appreciated but it seemsi continue to struggle to NOT take these fucking stimulants/amphetamines. I have been able to maintain low bodyfat levels without taking pills but one day i just decided to take some and I end up taking way over the reccomended doses daily. P.S. I am currently posting this after staying up all night doing work which is probably the reason why I am so "squirrely" right now. Ok I promise last edit. I just wanted to mention since I have such a weakness for stimulants (uppers) that luckily I never have tried/hope to never try things like meth or cocaine.