over the christmas break i hit rock bottom. a lot of issues surfaced and it was really overwhelming. since then, i have gotten better, but not enough. as soon as i got back to school i called to schedule a counseling consultation but the earliest opening was february 27th. i've been trying to hang on, but it's been really hard. i exercise everyday and i've been writing in a journal and throwing myself into school work, but it all seems for nothing. i still have this horrible feeling in my stomach and i want to just sleep all day. i hate feeling this way. i want out. i don't know why i can't be happy because i have a lot to be happy about. my life isn't bad, so when i do feel this way i start to feel guilty because i feel like i shouldn't. it's a weird cycle i put myself through. what else can i do? february 27th cannot come soon enough.