Its a bit worse than I thought, not that I'm broken down or anything its just that connection you have with a pet is hard when you lose them. But we put her to sleep because she had arthritis in her back legs/hips and couldn't walk or anything. She was in more pain than I could imagine. She just slept all day and ate. She even used to sleep next to her bowl of food because she couldn't walk anywhere she's gone now just felt like I had to tell someone.