Been a long time since i posted on this forum but been lurking and seeing what ya'll are up to. Well the breakdown is in sept i lost part of my eyesight and went to the doctor. They said my eyes were healthy and it had to be my brain. They biopsied my brain in Oct and said that it was a tumor and that i had 2-10 years to live. the next day they said it was inflation and out me on 12mg of dexamethasone (steroid). They made me go crazy and have anxiety like crazy. This is some serious medication. Well we were in the relationship for 2 1/2 months at the time and she had been taking care of me when i couldn't stand and when i had brain fluid leaking out of my back for a fucked up spinal tap. Well since Oct there have been fights about things that later i known i had blown things out of proportion. She has been patient and said it was the meds but it still doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt some of the things i say or do. Well i have been dosing down on the steroid but there are still side effects. Needless to say i grabbed all my shit, flipped out her going out of town to see some friends and mom (maybe i don't like but i have no right to prevent her from seeing them), and pretty much cut her out a week ago. She came over last night and we talked and we told each other how we felt and what was wrong with our relationship. I want to fix it but she doesn't know if she wants the relationship anymore. I have 2 months till i am completely off the steroid then i go to the neurosurgeon to see about my tumor (they finally figured it out) that may not be operable and chemo and radiation might be my only option. I am seeing a counselor now but only when things blew up instead of realizing before and she says that she can't trust me to put all her heart into the relationship just to get hurt again. My question im getting at is too much pain that has been caused to just move on with? Is time the only friend and way to fix myself and the relationship (cause i don't really know how much time i really have but im stubborn enough to live with this for the next 20 years)? Any advice guys would be awesome. Thanks vag crew Cliffs: have a tumor, got on a steroid, went crazy, relationship in shambles.