SRS ...gone...

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  1. durondude

    durondude OT Addict

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    Sorry if I've ever let anyone down...

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    Gone

    a place where no one can follow...
    where life will drown in my sorrow,
    love has no place to hold on to,
    where the sky is gray and the trees are blue...

    streets of memories cross every which way...
    where hearts are broken everyday,
    souls of the weak are lost in battle,
    happiness resides in a baby's rattle...

    life is lost but victory is love's...
    and fictional smiles are sent from above,
    tears of heaven drop from a cloud,
    sadness like this should not be aloud...

    gone like dust in a gust of wind...
    this is where my journey begins,
    where i'm going you will not be well,
    cause angels won't last so long in hell...
     
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  2. Peyomp

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    Don't

    do

    it
     
  3. durondude

    durondude OT Addict

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    with goodbye note at hand, what's a hopeless guy to do?
     
  4. Find hope. Unless of course that doesn't appeal to you.
     
  5. Peyomp

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    Call a hotline.
     
  6. durondude

    durondude OT Addict

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    "Only pain is real, happiness is just an illusion..."

    "To sleep perchance to dream; for in that eternal sleep of death, what dreams may come."
     
  7. What do you want?
     
  8. durondude

    durondude OT Addict

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    what's the best way to let go?
    How do I let go when others won't let me?
     
  9. What would you like to let go of? And who are these others who are not allowing you to do that?
     
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    durondude OT Addict

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    I've made up my mind.

    Letting go is hard because I'm still needed.
    Without that I have nothing.

    Thank you, I shall repay your efforts.
     
  11. What have you made up your mind about? Who is it that needs you?
     
  12. Peyomp

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    Don't do it, man. Call a hotline.
     
  13. durondude

    durondude OT Addict

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    After half a day of walking in the rain, I've realized that I'd miss it too much.
    It drowns my tears from the outside world... and keeps my secrets close with me.
    Even though my mind may no longer be with us, I'll go on...
     
  14. Peyomp

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    Rock the Planet.
     
  15. dave steel

    dave steel My Kung Fu is the best.

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    I feel like crying... but grown men do not cry,
    so i write... i feel like jumping off a bridge.. but I'm supposed to be strong right?? so how could I? I don't know how many people would actually miss me or need me if I was to be gone... but it doesn't seem like anyone wants or needs me anymore...
     
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    I was afraid that so many heart breaks would turn me cold.. but instead it just took all my hope away..leaving me empty... perhaps I'm looking for happiness in the wrong place... or maybe it just doesn't exist for me.
     
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    Grown men don't cry? But they'll take their own lives? I've been where you are. It's not a good place. If for nothing else, don't do it, for your family and the other people who care about you. I know it may not seem that way. This world is full of carelessness and selfishness. If you take your own life, you're only like the people who make you hurt.

    Nobody promised you at the day that you were born that life would be pleasure. Hence the saying 'life is pain'. But if you give up on it, then life has defeated you.

    Many people feel the way you're feeling right now, all the time. That doesn't mean they're weak, or it's their own fault. I suggest you go to a good psychologist (not psychiatrist). Talk to him. Let him talk to you. Medication might be in order. I don't want to do much more than sleep when I'm not on mine.

    AIM me if you want to talk
     
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    I don't have the money to pay for a psychologist... and medication... it's okay, I'm content with what I've got. I know my family needs me.... thats one thing that is stoping me.... plus a handfull of other people.
     
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    That's good that you have incentive. But that's not going to make you feel emotionally better about your life. Spend a lot of time with friend, whenever possible. If you're religious, go to church, join a youth group. Do something that involves you with other people. I think it's important that you exhaust all options for getting yourself a doctor that you can talk to on a regular basis. Do you have health insurance? How old are you? Can you get wellcare?
     
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  23. I cry all the time because of the difficulties I'm enduring. Life is not a "suffer free zone." There is a lot of pain, and difficulties. There are times when dreams are shattered and problems overwhelm us.

    Even the strongest iron can rust, and the strongest diamond can be cut. Being strong doesn't mean being invincible. In this world everything suffers from erosion. All things break down, and wear out. We as people need support to stay strong. We need love from people who hold us up simply because we're a person, not for what they can get from us. You're still a human being with needs. You need air, water, food, and - while some may disagree....I believe you also need the love of others.

    I'm real sorry that you're having such a tough time and that you feel so hopeless because I know what that feels like.
     
  24. If you would like to live - which I think you do - then we'll be here for you to the best of our ability. I won't lie to you, life is not easy for me, nor is it pleasant - but we play the cards we're dealt. I tend to just bluff since it's not a very good hand. *wink*
     
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    Darketernal Watch: Aria The Origination =)

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