God damn it! Well I guess I will get into it... I (was) coming up to my 3 yr anniversary with my boyfriend. Best 3 years of my life. Though I will admit he had secruity issues. And did not trust me. He knew i never cheated on him, but he just had trust issues in general. He was extremely jealousd and possesive..we were working on it and he got better, but still wouldnt let me talk to guys, or if i did he was ask questions and non the less get upset even if it was to ask me homework. so stupid me gets a phone on the side. not to flirst or hook up with guys, but just to talk to my friends, the friends he started tokeep me away from, even the girls...well needless to say he suprised me at my apartment last night and i answered the door forgetting to hide the phone, well he found it.. and saw the call log and left....he messaged that he is over me, i mean nothing to him and that i beter leave him alone. I cant get over him! I know he was wrong to be so posseive, and i was wrong to go behind is back with the phone.. but realizing both dont make me feel any better. he was all i had..we have broke up a couple of times in the past, either because of his stupidity or his dislike with my friends or whatever.. i know.. i know he isnt worth it. yadi yadi yadi.. it wont help me get over him.. i live alone.. and am so lonely now..i dont want a rebound.. i just want him back..but i know its not going to happen.. god i just want to hear something .. anything.. that will make this better.. or give me hope.. anything..i have tried the truth before, when i lied etc.. just telling him to the truth and just begged for his forgiveness.. and he usually forgave me but not without making me feeling worthless and depressing me...but this time..i really think he is over me.. and wants nothing to do with me. After 3 years of amazing love.. even talking about a ring...we were everything to eachother.. and now..without let me explain the phone he is gone.. and now forgotten about me.. Also he is the only one i have slept with.. i dont want to be with anyone else.. I just want him..