I was with her for about 9 months. 4 months ago we moved in with eachother and thats when things changed. we moves in with eachother way too fast. she said she felt like we were married. the reason she ended it was because "i treated her so well and she was so critical of me". she felt like she was using me and i was too god for her. in reality, i know she loves me, and is in love with me just as much as i am in love with her. the problem is that she has so many defenses up, so many emotional walls. literally every married couple in her family is divorced and they were all ugly divorces. i think that she sabotaged our relationship in fear that if we ever did end up together, it would end with divorce. we talked about marriage a few times, and neither of us wanted it anytime soon. she told me once that she would marry me. i have seen her without her defenses up, when she is herself, and i fell in love with that person. it just seems like she wants to much not to be hurt that she gave up on a really good thing before she ever gave it a chance. so here i am, depressed out of my mind and crying all the time. it has been a week and i cant stop. my friends and family tell me to "move on" "let her go" "there is someone better out there for you". I sit here and think "i dont want anyone else". everything feels so unfinished. i know i should give her time and if we are meant to be together, we will be. but everything in me wants to get out of this chair, go to her and tell her everything that i am feeling, and kiss her. i feel so strongly that is isnt over between us, and that i am really meant to love this woman for the rest of my life. i really dont know if anything will come from this post but it makes me feel a bit better typing out my feelings. hopefully i can get some good advice as to what will make me feel better. guy friends/family all say "go get laid" girls all say "you need time to yourself". but really, all i want is her. she makes me a better person just by being in my life, and i want to be a man that deserves her. she makes me want to be a better man /nicholson.