Ex cheated on me and told me on boxing day. I got it out of her by telling her that "I would tell her what I did if she told me what she did", then I was like, you fuckin slut I was loyal as a dog to you and this is what you do to me", 2 yr relationship gone like that. She tries to commit suicide, gets air ambulance down here, and I end up sending her ass packing back home. So anyways, I was pretty fucked up in January. Valentines day seemed to be a blessing to me, I feel like I am pretty much over her now. The thing is, I am celibate right now, and when I am with a girl, I am chaste. Meaning, I dont beat off. Now do not go telling me that it is unhealthy or any of that shit, it is part of my beleifs which I am not going to get into... I am actually perfectly fine being chaste or celibate, I am above and beyond that issue. ANYWAYS.. So yeah, I am out there looking for a girlfriend. It is not just for the sex, I kind of want company. I miss the touch of a woman. A pretty hot\nice girl was cutting my hair the other day and when her hands touched me, it reminded me of a woman. Then I felt like... wow... I really miss that... a lot. I am out and there are plenty of fine looking girls out there. I am going to the gym, staying kempt (good haircut, shaved), dress well. I have a good personality, am talking to hot girls with great eye contact. I am not afraid to ask for numbers. It is just that all of my life, I have never been rejected or I have had girls ask ME out. Now it is like, I cannot get a girls number. I am not sure if that is rejection or not, I really dont give a fuck. I do not know what the problem is. Is it that mystical thing where that "right girl" has to just come along and I will know it... or do I just keep trying... Kind of lost right now. Dont exactly want to wait around forever, but I do realise that like usual I have to initiate things or fuck all will happen.