So recently I've been talking to a girl. We had known who each other were for a while through mutual friends, and at a wedding we made out. We started hanging out a few weeks later, and things start to get physical real fast. Prior to us having sex she opened up and told me she was raped when she was 19, (25 now) and that she was trying to wait until marriage before having sex again. Well in our next session things got way heated and we end up having sex. We've had sex a total of 3 times over the past few weeks. I could sense that something was up and after a few half-hearted talks she finally opened up in an email telling me how she wanted to wait, how she told me she didn't want to have sex with me and was clear about it, and was upset with herself and me. She was also upset for not being able to communicate with me on this. Now I really like this girl and of course I feel like complete shit now. I have no idea what I can do about it and everything is kind of up in the air right now. I'm pretty sure it's ruined. I know what the majority of OT thinks about religion and waiting and I really don't care to hear more of it. She's a genuinely good girl and I totally should have respected her beliefs. I took something that wasn't intended for me, and due to her past I've done more damage. This is easily the worst thing I've ever done to another person . Anyway I don't know what I'm going for in this post. Just need to vent because I can't talk to my friends about it because I'm trying to keep this private.