It's pretty much as it says. I've posted here before about my previous problems with a different ex gf and all the trouble it led me into. I like to believe that for my age (19) I am decently mature. Ive been sent to juvenile hall for pursuing my ex gf to no ends, and stayed in mental hospitals earlier in my highschool days for OCD (which i am now off the medication for and have been feeling pretty good about for the past few months), and as of a couple weeks ago my parents moved me out to an apartment because now my younger brother has become increasingly violent and i've had to call the police on him several times already. So I like to believe to some degree i can deal with "shit". But this time i dont know. The feeling of betrayal just makes me feel so dead inside. I tried to force myself to cry, like really bawl it out to make myself feel better but it wouldnt happen. I'm not enraged or pissed off or screaming at all. I'm still dead numb and sad. I found out yesterday, and apparently they were fucking for a couple weeks while i was on vacation when she and i were having relationship problems. then she fucked her ex. then we got back together a little while after, tried to keep the relationship going for another month, it didnt work and now shes screwing a guy that my best friend and i both used to hang out with. I dont know what to do OT, just venting. edit: oh he is sorry though. he's been my best bud since we were like 14, the rest of our group is made of our respective child hood friends.