Background: My drinking has been an ever-increasing problem for me in the last couple of years. It escalated to the point that recently I was a drunk for 4 months. I was drunk 1 or 2 times per day during this time. I finally humbled myself and came to terms with my drinking problem and admitted to myself that I am an alcoholic, and quit drinking about a month ago. I purposefully avoided any social situations that involved alcohol until last night. One of my closest friends visited from out of state, and when I met up with him he was drinking at a restaurant. He would forget that I had quit drinking and would offer me a drink repeatedly. He wasn't being mean, its just that social drinking is so ingrained in his world (and my old world). Everything we used to do together always involved alcohol. I had to travel to a neighboring city to see him. While still at home I toyed with the idea of having a beer (one won't hurt, right?). Then I was honest with myself and admitted that it is impossible for me to have 1 drink. If I tried to have 1 drink with dinner, I would have at least 3 drinks. Then I would be driving border-line drunk, and after I was buzzing most likely I would have 10 drinks before the night was over. I really didn't crave a drink and I had no problem abstaining, but its certainly not as much fun to go out socially and not drink.