It feels so good to be rid of the anxiety and insomnia I was suffering from right after the breakup. I've accepted that we will probably never get back together and thats fine, but the only thing that really still bugs me is that I lost a best friend. I have lots of great friends and they are there for me( I can't say enough great things about them), but we were REALLY close and so abruptly I have lost one of my "best friends". All in all I am doing great and over this bullshit, but at times I regret losing a cool chick that at one point in time was a best friend. And the funny thing is after all this drama I should not want to talk to her anymore, but truthfully I still in the back of my mind hope that we can be friends again one day.