SRS Finally..... Beating My OC Addiction (story)

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  1. S4Driver

    S4Driver New Member

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    Growing up I never recall having taken a pain pill, like a Vicodin or even Percocet. After getting my wisdom teeth pulled, and having a small surgery on my left hand, I discovered the nice, warm "high" that I could get from popping a pain pill. At a "friend's" house he brought out a small 40mg pill that said OC on it. I had never heard of oxycontin actually, nor did I hear that you could snort, or even inject (I never injected btw) these things. Basically I had no idea what was ahead for me and my addictive personality. He crushed the pill up and cut two even lines for us. After watching him sniff one I decided to do the other. After all, he said the high hit you "all at once" and it was just like taking a bunch of pain pills. I had, and have never done any other drugs other than smoking pot btw. I was hooked from that first time I did it. I wanted it. I started buying a few pills from him here and there and soon I was spending hundreds, even over a thousand dollars sometimes, in some months, on oxycontin. OC completely changed me. My whole day revolved around a few little pills that I soon "needed", and not just wanted. I was hooked after abusing them for about 3 months. When I would try and stop taking them, the withdrawls were nothing short of the WORST HELL I could imagine. Puking, shitting, aching, sweating, panicing.... you name it. I was also lying to everyone about what was happening to me. I thought I was in the clear, but thats what this shit does to you when you are on it. You think you are on top of the world and that you have all your shit together. It's somewhat humorous looking back now, that I thought that way.

    Oddly enough I was listening to Howard Stern when Artie Lang broke the news that he had kicked a recent herione habit with basically a "magic pill", that would take all the withdrawl symptoms from heroine away, as well as the unbareble cravings. After researching on the net, I found many similarities between OC and heroine. It scared the shit outta me even more finding out that the two drugs were so similar. I was a junkie, just with pills. I called my DR and told her I was an addict and requested information on a drug called SUBUTEX. We looked over a program that used SUBUTEX or SUBOXONE (it contains SUBUTEX). I checked into a hospitol once I had begun my withdrawl symptoms, and after my last use of OC. SUBOXONE took almost every symptom of this LIVING HELL away. I still cannot believe that it works so well. I have kicked the habit, and my life has changed so much! I am soooooooooo much happier and I no longer have to lie to people about what I am doing. I also have a helluva lot more money now that I no longer have to spend $35-$65 per pill, on several OC a day.

    My hope is that someone will read this and at least be informed. I was hopeless thinking that I would have to endure about week of HELL to come off OC with no aid. I knew I couldn't do it cause believe me I tried. I had no idea that something was out there to help me in this. It is so worth being off that shit!!!!!! I would encourage anyone struggling to seek help. You will be glad you did.

    I also had a lot of support, once I came clean about my addiction, from my family and friends. Support from loved ones is also a very powerfull tool in fighting this too. If anyone wants more information I would like to help if I can. Just PM me and I will try my best, even if its just encouragement.
     
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    sparq New Member

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    Good story! Glad to hear you are clean...
     
  3. watermouse

    watermouse BeefySnax

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    Suboxine. Oh that is a pain pill addicts way to freedom.
    I was addicted to painpills(lortab and percast) and then, me and my girlfriend wanted off. luckily my friend had these, and he gave them to us.

    Going through withdrawls is the hardest thing to ever encure. I fucking hate it.
    well i was clean for about 3 months and i relapsed :(

    I am thinkin about going into a hospital to get this.
    I really want off once and for all. it srsly ruins your life.

    :( ugh.

    so the hospital prescribed this to you? what state do you live in?
    I am just asking because i didnt know that a hospital could. I thought pain clinics did and there for you would have to be in a treatment class.

    meh.
    i dunno.

    I am all about coming off of these, but fuck a inpatient program
     
  4. S4Driver

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    They way I was perscribed Suboxone was that I first had a consult with a "specialist" through my medical insurance. Arrangements were then made to get me a bed at the inpatient location. I had to be in withdrawl in order to get the Suboxone. THen the dr. monitored me to get my dosage right. It took me a total of 3 days and 4 nights from the start of when I went in to leaving the clinic. I am in Oregon btw.
     
  5. watermouse

    watermouse BeefySnax

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    Wow okay, See I dont want to do a impatient program.
    I just cant do it, with work and all. I dont understand how if you want to get off these drugs, they dont make it more accessable to you. I cannot leave my work to go to a impatient program.

    So, I have to buy street drugs to help me.
    Which i am doing now.
    I used to know someone that sold suboxone. but they no longer get it. sucks for me.

    So my only other alternative is to buy methadone. So that is what I am currently doing 10mg/$5 a pop.

    I am taking 3 of these every other day. Then I am going to try going down to 1 a day, then see how long i can last till withdrawls hit and go from there.

    I have not yet been in withdrawl since my relapse. and i fear it. I will do any/everything in my power to not experience that again.

    I think what I am doing with work, since methadone is what they prescribe you for opiate addiction also.
     
  6. Falconer

    Falconer OT Supporter

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    What would Suboxone do to someone who isn't addicted to anything?
     
  7. watermouse

    watermouse BeefySnax

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    Nothing.

    go read up on it.
    suboxone will block your recepters into thinking you have taken an opiate. there fore it tricks your brain and you bypass all the withdrawl symptoms.

    and you dont just eat suboxone. there is a special way one must take it.
     
  8. S4Driver

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    It may make you feel a little out of it, but you won't get fucked up or anything.
     
  9. Falconer

    Falconer OT Supporter

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    So it won't have the opposite effect. I was j/w. I was thinking (incorrectly so) that if:

    Withdrawl + Suboxone ---> feeling good

    that

    Normal + suboxone --might--> feeling awesome

    I know things don't work that way, but I figured I'd ask.

    Props to you and your recovery, man.
     
  10. S4Driver

    S4Driver New Member

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    To answer your questions.....

    Withdrawl + Suboxone ---> takes away almost all withdrawl symptoms, makes you feel "normal"

    Normal + suboxone---> "normal"
     
  11. Falconer

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    Thanks.
     
  12. Xicculus

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    You are making a HUGE mistake. Take the 4 days off, check yourself in. Basically now you're trying to play doctor, and buying street drugs to treat your street drug addiction.

    Thats just not smart.

    Good luck to you.

     
  13. GooeyGus

    GooeyGus I has Laz0rz.

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    So are you still on Suboxone or did you just use it to detox?


    I can also safely say that i beleive suboxone saved my life. I turn 21 in a few days and i really think i should be dead with everything that i've been through. I started abusing opiates daily at age 18. Finally by 19 and a half i was IV'ing over 500mg of oxycodone a day, and heroin if i couldn't find any OC. by 20 i had attempted to quit a few times, but usually could only make it about 10 or 15 days then i would relapse. About 4 or months after my 20th birthday, after i had stolen money from my family, pawned all of my valuables (and some of my parents'), i was so depressed that it was either i end my life, or i find some serious help. I finally found a suboxone doctor with some openings.

    Here i am, a few months shy of one year on suboxone, and i've made a complete 180. I'm getting back into school, to persue my dreams to become a physician. I'm also working, making decent money. I know that its not a miracle cure becuase i will have to experience withdrawals again when i come off of it, but it has really saved my life.

    If there is anyone out there struggling with opiate addiction and you just cant seem to get clean and stay that way, i STRONGLY suggest suboxone therapy.

    Sorry for rambling on for so long, just thought i would share my story :bowdown: :bowdown:
     
  14. GooeyGus

    GooeyGus I has Laz0rz.

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    Oh and as far as missing work to get into a treatment program:

    If you had cancer, would you miss a few days to get the treatment you needed? this is just as serious, my friend. you WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE. You will end up in jail, or dead. please please please realize how serious addiction is and get some help, i'm sure your work will understand.
     
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    Good for you. Going through the addiction may have been very difficult for you, but now you're a better person because of it. Luckily for you, you didn't get addicted to a drug that is neurotoxic :).
     
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    ive been going to the methadone clinic now for about 9 months and i saw something there about suboxone and how it was supposed to make coming down a lot easier. i am almost halfway done coming down off my methdone dose, im on 24 mg now and i am considering switching over to suboxone. its more expensive, $18 a day compared to 13 for methadone, but its supposed to make quitting much easier. any firsthand information/experiences you had with suboxone that you could share would be great. i hear about headaches and vomitting with suboxone.

    thanks
     
  17. i killed tupac

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    Go to a meeting, why are you trying to do this on your own?!?!?

    i detoxed on a recovering addicts floor....7 1/2 years ago. Stop trying to control it and get ready for pain. You did this to you-stop.

    so you'll be uncomfortable...tough break
     
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    I really wanted to quit doing OC and I think that was the biggest thing for me personally. Unfotunately my body could not take the withdrawl symptoms and cravings. I was stuck in bed! With that being said the Suboxone worked ALMOST INSTANTLY to curb my withdrawls. I was ignorant to the fact that Suboxone is STILL, like Methadone, an opiod. I had withdrawls from the Suboxone even after being tapered off of it. However, I really wanted to quit the OC, and the withdrawls from Suboxone were very manageable and NOTHING like coming off OC.

    I personally don't like Methadone becuase I used it to get high when I was out of OC. Suboxone doesn't get you high like Methadone it just stops the symptoms!

    I think that you should consider staying on or at least finishing your Methadone program, but you should at least research, like you are doing, Suboxone. I had headaches and I could not sleep the first few days on Suboxone. Again though, these symptoms were VERY MINOR and extremely tolerable when compared to coming off OC. Good luck!
     
  19. NoQuarter

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    careful with suboxone...its got opiates in it as well. Use it sparringly only to get you out of withdrawl. I have gotten 7 people this year alone off of oc/perc/vicoden. Some of them took 80mg a dayf or years on end and it only took a month to get them clean and free.

    I know how hard it is to kick this gorilla off your backs guys ;) If you need help im around.

    Ps...i use to be the mod Purevl here..
     
  20. {hydro}

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    hmm i know i feel awesome off some suboxone and ive never done oc:dunno:
     
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    Wow, very informative thread. I recently found out that my friends' wife has been addicted to OC, Vicodin, Methodone, whatever she can get her hands on for over a year. Just the other day she took 4 OC's between 8am and noon. He recently got laid off, and is living off unemployment. Her addiction is killing their finances. I told him about the Suboxone and he's gonna look into it as well. What would be the best way to get ahold of it? They have 2 children, and he doesn't want to lose his kids. Might there be some sort of state sponsored program she could get into? Thanks in advance :hs:
     
  22. GooeyGus

    GooeyGus I has Laz0rz.

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    go to suboxone.com and find a doctor in your area, you'll probably have to call a few of them becuase the doctors are limited to a certain number of patients that they can prescribe to.
     
  23. S4Driver

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    Sorry for the delayed response, I have been off the internet for a bit, until now. Your buddy's wife will have to want to stop first off. Secondly there really arent that many places to help people with this sort of addiction. Its sad, but this is something I found out when I was an addict myself, and wanted help. I know in Portland there is one place downtown that is sort of a first come first serve basis. I would look into it more if someone really wanted the name as I have forgot. That was an option for me, though not the best. I had insurance and was offered a little more help, though not much. The best bet is to ask around to find a place nearby. Obviously it is worth almost anything to get off this shit and keep the kids.
     
  24. watermouse

    watermouse BeefySnax

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    HERE IS THE THREAD!!
    YaY!!!!!

    I just wrote a LONG ASS New Topic in this FORUM! ( please go read... if you want)

    Anyways.......

    But I decided I needed help and said FUCK IT, and went to a INPATIENT Program. it was a 30-day program and OH MY GOD!

    Best thing that has ever happened to me!

    I was SO against Inpatient...When I got there, I almost left....but I know I wanted clean!

    I have now been clean just over 3 months from heroin and painpills.
    My Last USE date was 4-25-2007 @ 5:00pm

    God I feel great now.
    and its funny to come back on here and see what I wrote. When I was writing that, I was in withdrawls.

    I am now on suboxone and get it prescribed to me by a doctor!

    Anyone with an addiction and would like professional help. Walker Center (Gooding, ID) Is a TOP NOTCH Facility(its spendy, but you cant put a price on life...right?) anyways.....god damn.

    I cant believe I did it!
     
  25. anomaly

    anomaly If you weren't around for the original HA.net spli

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    No shit man. Go to detox, take it like a man, start going to meetings daily. You MIGHT have a chance to stay clean.
     

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