I haven't really made my own thread in regards to what recently happened to my last SO, just been posting in other threads. When I was 16 and she was 14 we met up. I actually met her on yahoo chat before she started high school. Sure we were young, but we immediately had a connection and starting going out in December of 1999. We had a very adventurous relationship; I don't regret any of it. Her senior year in high school when she turned 18, she started to change. She was attractive and she used that to her advantage. We started to argue because I began questioning her with other guys. And she ended up leaving me because she said I didn't trust her. The thing is, I found out she used that as a scapegoat to leave me. I saw her cell phone calls to this guy at 2 or 3 in the morning on her bill and she still denied it. Then I found out they slept a few times together after she left me. 3 months later I took her back because she came crying back and I still had feelings for her since we never really stopped talking to each other during the breakup. Now I don't really believe in once a cheater always a cheater. The next 3 years we had a really close relationship; I could see her committment to me and she always spoke of me highly. We never argued and things were well. She started going to UT Austin but I would see her every weekend. When the 6th year of being together hit (her 2nd year at UT Austin) things began to change. This time it was me. I had finished college and began doing my own thing at home, either playing games on the PC a lot or watching TV, basically enjoying myself at home before moving out to the real world. And when she called me on the weekdays I'd always be doing this. And then the problem was that I started to become lazy when seeing her and act tired. I either acted like I didn't feel like being there at first or I'd get there late. I guess after 7 years of being together things sometimes become lackluster and I wasn't realizing how mad it was making her. She recently turned 21 and that night before we went out I was laying in her bed and she got upset saying she had to drag me out. I really did wanna go out though. Finally 2 weeks later, she called me and was tired of it all and said she couldn't do it anymore. I was 23 and she was 21; we broke up last month over the phone and that bothered me a lot. I immediately realized what happened. I let things become stagnet and she got upset at things I wasn't fully aware of. We were our first loves and I guess we just made stupid mistakes to each other. For the next month I begged her to consider me again and that I promise things would be much better. I felt this was completely my fault. And it doesn't help that she is completely heartless afterwards. She never did let me see her in person or even talk to her on the phone which my friends and family felt was immature. She only read emails and responded very slow playing this game with me. She wants to find someone in Austin I believe. I text msg her last night asking to please consider things again and she said 'I'm sorry I can't give you another relationship. It's time to move on.' A lot of angry/depressed emotions went through me when she said that. I'm sorry; I guess I'm just venting more than anything. I was with the same girl for a large part of my life and while I'm still young it still hurts like hell. We did a LOT together and I think maybe she is overlooking that. I just want to make sure I learned everything I could. I forgave her the first time we broke up. I felt that the mistakes I made when we broke up the 2nd time were fixable if she would of made it clear that she was unhappy. I told her over and over no one is perfect. Why can't my ex be more forgiving and give me the benefit of the doubt at least after being together 7 years? Why won't she let me talk to her in person? Is she leaving me out of her own selfishness to mingle in Austin? Was my first mistake taking her back the first time we broke up? The first time we broke up I didn't feel so bad after I found out it was mainly her. But this 2nd time I feel horrible because I feel a large part of it was my fault and she is being stern in putting this on me. And I'm not getting another chance like I gave her. I'm really dealing with this hard as I am a sensitive guy. I loved and cared for this girl so much and all it took was a few fuckups to throw it all away. I took things for granted because I just got my EE degree and should have a nice job soon. I was more so focused on that becoming the next step to success in the relationship but I never got the chance to show it. This hurts.