Hi people of the asylum! I posted in the other forum and got my head nearly ripped off. But anyhow here is my story. My ex and I were together for 3 1/2 years. We have known each other for 5. She was getting a lot of pressure from her family asking what is happening in you relationship are you going to get married or what. So we decided to take sometime off and just be ourselves, she also wanted to make sure i was the one for her. I was her first serious boyfriend. While on our break we talked several times a day and continued to have sex weekly. This lasted for 6 months. One night I had a thought that she was seeing someone else. I Drove to her house and caught her talking to another guy. She was supposed to come to my house the very next day. She says she was going to tell me that she was seeing someone else, some how I doubt that. So we basically end it there, she says she likes this guy and wants to give him a chance and that you never know what happens in the future. The guy is 29 she is 23 and I am 25. This happened Dec 15. Fast forward a month, I havent talked to her, I add her to my friendster list and she emails me a not saying: "Happy new year, hope 2005 brings you only the good stuff, hope to here form you" Fast forward another week, I ended up calling her and talking for nearly 3 hours about everything, we then set up to see each other on Friday. On friday we go out to a really nice dinner and everything seems to be like it was before, we feed each other touch each other hold hands a little kiss. After dinner I give her a poem that I wrote for her it bring a tear to her eye. We then leave the restuarant, i forget to validate my parking and go back only to see her rereading the poem. We then go back to my house. She immediatly walks into my room and lies down on my bed under the covers. I lie down with her. I then proceed to start kissing her neck and her ear. I then start kissing her lips and she doesn't kiss back but you can tell she is fighting it. I then start to kiss her chest are and she is literally lunging into me wanting me to go further so I proceed. She then asks have I been with anyone, I tell her the truth which is no. So i go back to kissing her chest area. After about 15 min she is like I cant do this, please stop and I tell her you are going to have to nudge me to stop and after about 2 more min she nudges me. We start talking about us again and she says she has moved on and that I need to do the same. I aksed her why are you here with me and she says for one last hurrah but that she also missed me. I tell her that I know she wants to be with me and that she is the one who gave up on our relationship because her family doesn't not accept a white guy (she is asian). While we were talking she tells me that she wants a future for us but she wants to see where this relationship may go (new guy is asian) and that she wants me as a security blanket in case she makes a mistake. After much more talk I take her home and she gets out of the car and kisses me on the lips and holds me and touches me and says why cant we be friends I tell her I can't move on being your friend. I love this girl and I want her back so bad but What should I do? I dont want to be her doormate that she can step on anytime, I have told her those exact words. I also kinda want to seek revenge because i am so hurt, like I want her to come back into my life just so i can tell her what she told me, but part of me wonders maybe she will have realized if she comes back that I am the one for her, What are the chances she will come back? Please help!