feel like dying? I'm not thinking of killing myself but sometimes I feel as though it'd be welcomed if a huge truck ran me over. I don't understand it really. I have a great family, we all get along great, had the best childhood you could ask for, have a couple really close friends, a loving girlfriend, nice car, good looks but still feel that way sometimes. I know this probably belongs in the asylum but I browse the vag way more often and recognize most of the posters here so maybe it can stay? I feel overwhelmed, with work, with school, with becoming something, with making money... all i want to do is hurry up and get into a career that makes good money.. im in school for it but it will be almost another 3 years before im out and making good money! my gf is gonna go to school 5 hours away so i pretty much know that once that happens, eventually we'll split up. how can you carry on a relationship when you can rarely see the other person? my work scheudule is not one where i could really ever get to see her. i work so much and alot of times on the weekends and have school during the week. she wants me to transfer and be with her but how could i? i still live at home, we dont have the money to get a place near her school. work lately has been stressful, i feel like i make alot of mistakes when im trying hard to do right. like sometimes i know i goof off and i'd deserve punishment but damn, lately i've been trying to do a good job but still it's not working out for me.. i feel like drinking and smoking pot almost every night (though I don't) im in school for something that is gonna make really good money and thats pretty much the only reason why im doing it.. is that wrong? i mean there's many other jobs that id much rather be doing (such as a cop) but they would never pay enough to make me happy. /end rambling.