phew, man.... i don't even know where to start. i felt so crushed last night, in fact i still do. don't think i slept much either..... and over just a friend hah! wonder what it's like to lose a girlfriend (22, no serious relationships). but anyway, i had a run-in with a (girl) friend of mine last night. i wrote her an e-mail yester-morning how i basically felt that she was taking me for granted, that i was being mistreated and unappreciated (sometimes not giving me the time of day, or showing that she genuinely cares about me and my life) so i called her on it. i was brushing these things off when they happened, but it annoyed me to the point where i had to write her that e-mail so i can get those issues addressed. i've read a lot of posts here by metallic blue, and i've been inspired in putting ME first. we're usually pretty good at discussing things like mature individuals and that's how we both approached it from the start, but it snowballed into a huge mess. a bit of a background. we've been friends for a couple years now, spent NYEs together, most holidays, traveled around Europe together.. etc etc. we have this mutual friend (who is my best guy friend) that she's had a lot of run-ins with (pretty much on the same subject that i had an issue with), but they weren't as close as us two. i didn't get in the middle of it cause it was never my business, but apparently it's escalated into emotional drama a couple of times and this was taking it's toll on her. i found this out last night when she broke down during our talk. long story short, she said she couldn't take it anymore and that we need to "take a break". i don't know what that means in a FRIENDSHIP but i'm going to respect her and give her some space. i'm not going to go crawling back to her either at a later date, i think she made a huge mistake doing this. she's going to have to really want me back. probably 90% of it is not my fault and has nothing to do with me. i didn't agree with it, but i can't change her mind. i'm going to let it be and live my life. yes i'll miss her and feel like there's something missing, but hey! this is how i feel this morning, and thanks for listening Asylum cause i had no other friend to share it with. any comments are welcome.