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  1. upparoom

    upparoom OT Supporter

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    Reckon I just need to rant. not looking for advice really, just need to write things out. Its amazing how quickly things change. And how I go from being in control of my life, to my life in the god damn sewer.

    3 months ago

    I had $37,000 liquid
    I was looking at a new car
    I had a decent apartment in a meh side of town
    I had a woman who loved me, and I must say, was the best woman I ever had the luck of being with.
    I had a decent existance

    Today

    I spent/will spend the $20,000 I had left to cover the charges on an auto accident I had (my fault)
    My truck is completely fucked and is barely driveable.
    My g/f left me because Im a fucking retard and I cant control my temper
    I have jack shit left for me in this god damn town.
    Im inches away from being fired because I'm now "too expensive"


    Basically, I have little good left and frankly, I'm emo as fuck about how life has turned on me.

    Mostly, I wish I could have avoided the argument that made the love of my life fall out of love with me.

    I give 2 shits about the money or the car or the job. I just miss her. :(

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    like I said, not looking for advice. I just needed to write things down.
     
  2. RotiEatter

    RotiEatter New Member

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    What did you argue about?

    sorry about everything man
     
  3. johan

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    Think back. What event/thought/action precipitated the downward spiral.

    It's longer than 3 mos ago, I'm sure of that.
     
  4. RyeBread

    RyeBread If you tell the truth you don't have to remember a

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    "We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, "Why did this happen to me?" unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way. ~Author Unknown"

    It's human nature to dwell on the bad, and to "why me". Lord knows I've done more than my fair share.

    the really important thing to remember, that while this may seem to be a "downward spiral" into oblivion, it's nothing more than just a downward dip in the road.
     
  5. PuppyCat

    PuppyCat O.T. Mom

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    Holy Resentment. Sounds to me like you have a wee bit of anger there. Firstly, above everything, you simply must learn to control your temper-anger has absolutely no re-sale value and moreover, it puts one in a dreadful headspace.



    Secondly, I do not understand why you had to pay so much money for having an accident. Did you not have insurance? If you did not, then you are solely to be blamed for your present financial status, considering that you stated you had in excess of $37,00 available. It would seem to me that you could have well afforded the best insurance possible with an insignificant deductible. Or perhaps there were other things involved that you did not mention or simply I do not understand the premise of auto insurance.



    As for being a silly and letting your temper get the best of you, perhaps the next time you feel the need to “spout off” you could take a deep breath and count to 10 very slowly.



    Losing the love of your life is difficult. Definite “soul pain”. Perhaps in time when you have calmed down a bit and are not so full of “mea culpa” you can call her and have a good heart-to-heart and discuss your temper issues in a civilized manner. Speaking as a woman, it is frightening to have a man around who has an uncontrollable temper; one never knows what to expect and that in itself is a terrible way to live. Being afraid of the man one loves is just fodder for relationship breakup.



    IMO, it’s good to come to the Asylum and rant…I do it…it’s better than a) keeping it all inside; b) taking it out on someone or something and c) trying to find solace in a bottle or pills or some other nasty. Moreover, it is always good to receive fresh opinions or new avenues for exploration, even if one did not ask for them.



    I think that once you have your anger/temper under control and can deal with it effectively life will be much better for you.



    Be careful out there.



     
  6. DiggityDogg

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    I agree with johan, your relationship did not suddenly go down like that. If someone loves you and they leave you then it was something that was on a downward spiral for some time.

    The good news is that you know there is a problem, and that is half of the battle right there. Now that your problem has been idetnified the next thing to do would be to takes steps to remedy the situation, and I think you know how.
     
  7. upparoom

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    I gave $10,000 to my parents when hurricane Rita came through in case they needed anything. It was spent.

    I have insurance, but the amount that its going to cost to fix eveything exceeds the coverage by a bit. I hit 2 very expensive cars

    Ah to do it all over again. I know. and I cant beleive I didnt just walk away from it. I should have just left to cool down. :(


    I know. :(
     
  8. upparoom

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    and I just lost my job
     
  9. DiggityDogg

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    Bummer. Well, you can feel sorry for yourself or you can get back up. Easier said than done, but what is the alternative?
     
  10. PuppyCat

    PuppyCat O.T. Mom

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    :bowdown: Excellent question.

    Personally...there is a "good" in being down...I've been there...the good is climbing up again...it can, and is, very rewarding...growth, experience, a lesson or two learned...and there are so many positive choices to make when you start climbing out of that dark place...to be candid, I oftentimes feel like a kid in a candy store...Holy Doodle Diggity Dogg...sometimes I just am amazed at it all.

    Let's hope our friend experiences the same.

    Let's send him some positive thoughts.:)
     
  11. upparoom

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    bah, I've lost it all and made it all back several times already.

    Hell I went from making $300K/year to making $30K/year, bounced back, lost it, etc...

    the money/job Im not too worried about. its the girl I wish I could get back :hs:
     
  12. Darketernal

    Darketernal Watch: Aria The Origination =)

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    Instead of putting darkness and hatred into other people's lives , try putting love and light in them. Now i want you to overthink that,and start with a new white sheet and give yourself another chance. Understand that saying even little hatefull things can spark the end of your relationship,your job,money and all that you love, everything in life has meaning,and maby the lessons you learn from this will make up for the price that you had to pay for it :hs:
     
  13. JohnJohnJohnson

    JohnJohnJohnson Effetely Sipping My Latte OT Supporter

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    I have a temper problem but I think not on your level.
    Btw,
     

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