SRS Don't know what to do.

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  1. Devoidarex

    Devoidarex Rexversusu v.2.0

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    My dad is dying of lung cancer. I haven't spoken to him in a few years, basically because the last thing he said to me was "Your mother was very disapointed in you when she died."

    Anyway, we haven't gotten along since I was a very little kid, and now I don't know what to do. He lives at his house with my younger brother, who basically watches over him.

    The problem is that I can't summon the courage to phone him or go visit. It is hard to explain just how deep my anger goes with my father. I want to fix things between us, but I just can't do it. Because of this I've been feeling very guilty and anxious for the past few months. Every day I feel bad for at least a part of the day.

    I don't even know why I'm posting this, because people will just tell me to go talk to him and I know that I won't be able to. :hs:

    Sometimes I just wish he would die already so I could move past all this. I seriously hate my life right now. :sadwavey:
     
  2. illmaceyougood

    illmaceyougood New Member

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    You're not obligated to do anything. You can't choose who you're born to; just because someone's your dad doesn't mean that you need to have a relationship with him.
     
  3. sLpFhaWK

    sLpFhaWK www.JJiGz.com

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    Suck it up, strap on a set and make it right w/ your pops. he might be a dick but hes still your dad so go talk to him before he dies and then you'll never get the chance.
     

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