i dont know what to do, i dont have anyone to talk to, sorry if its too long... me n my gf have been dating for 4 months now. i gave my virginity to her. i know she loves me very much, n i really love her too. we both open our hearts too much too easy. the thing is, whenever i tell her im going to do something (especially if i dont even plan them out i just decide it), and then i change my mind, she gets mad. like last night, i told her i was coming over. (my parents don't like her too much, but they want to like her because i like her. they really wanted me to spend one night out of the week with them. i go to school during the week and am home on the weekends.) so when i get to her house, she isnt there yet, she was on her way, so i go with my mom to get food. then she calls n wants to know if im still coming. then i tell her i want to spend the night with the family. she gets mad because i had already told her i was coming. she thinks my parents hate her and dont want me spending time with her. thats not the case, they understand. i can tell im really hurting her when i do these kinds of things but it didnt really hit me until last night, i thought we were over. she is my first love, and i dont know if it is because i really love her or if it is becuase she was the first. i am really not ready to give her up yet. this is a tough time for me and i really want her love. my parents think that i am way too young to be dealing with all this right now(im 18). they say if i set it free n it comes back....u know. i think that may be a good thing, but if i do that, im going to hurt so bad. just thinking about not being able to see her when i come home from school breaks my heart. maybe im just attatched or maybe i really do love her, but im tired of hurting her. i dont know what to do. if anyone can make me feel any better about this or offer any kind of advice, please help me.