I'm a girl who, growing up, was completely ignored by the guys. I had disfiguring acne, and I was very awkward and shy. My body was okay. Over the years, I guess my features started to look better, and recently every last bit of my acne disappeared. I got a tan, a new wardrobe, and finally was able to wear makeup because there aren't huge pustules all over my face. Even when I don't wear makeup, my face still looks clear; I was lucky enough not to get scars, despite looking hideous because of acne for such a long time. I also have a healthy diet and work out, so my body is very lean. In short, I'd say I'm normal-looking now, even a bit attractive to some! I've always had a lot of guy FRIENDS, but they were never interested in me in the slightest. Now, I've burst onto the scene looking completely different, and they are all saying that I'm great-looking! I also get flirted with all the time when I go out, which is a nice change. I'm going on a date this weekend with an amazing guy. The thing is, though, I find all this attention (not that it's a lot, but compared to before...) overwhelming. Sometimes if someone compliments when I'm out, I go home and feel sick and cry. I feel like it's not fair that I was ugly for so long, and as a result, people didn't even look me in the eye. Inside I'm still that nasty, ugly person. I feel like I'm parading in someone else's body now, that isn't mine. I feel this isn't "right" but at times I cry with relief too, that I am normal. I am normal enough to go out and have fun, and not worry about snickering and teasing. I'm not really sure what I'm asking. Just thought I'd put this all out there.