SRS Done tokin

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  1. Raj

    Raj who fucking cares

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    So this is my thread, my motivation, and daily reminder that I need to quit smoking. I have been smoking daily for almost 2.5 years now(just saying that is hard to believe and really disgusting). I must not have thought it was a problem because during that time my grades have been great and so has life in general. Starting last fall though, I thought I was ready to toke up and then I would toke and be like alright this is cool....but then I would wish I wasnt high. I quit during winter break for a little over a month, and felt great. I was the life of the party, clear minded, more motivated to work out and do productive things than usual. Then a few weeks after school started again, I started tokin again because it had been awhile and it was fun(I got blazed like you would when you hardly smoked). Well that every once in a while turned back into everyday, and that brings me to today. I went home over spring break and accidentally left a small sac in pocket. My mom was helping me do my laundry and found it in the washer.

    When I saw the way she and my dad acted and how they were not surprised, but more disappointed it hit me. I realized that I was using weed as a crutch for problems in life instead of dealing with them like a normal person. Not to mention the side effects that this usage could have on the great relationship I have with my family. I also realize that being high probably cost me a few relationships with girls that I really would have liked to date. It is going to be a challenge, as nearly everyone I know likes to toke. I am determined though, and it will be up to me and my self determination to stop smoking. I know that it must happen sometime, and that I must grow out of this college phase eventually(I graduate in one year). Right before I started reading other threads on Road to Recovery about weed, I was presented with the opportunity to get high with two different groups of people. I knew that I had to decline and I did, and for the first couple minutes I really wished that I was with them and was getting high. As I began reading these threads and typing this post, it hit me I really do like being sober and clear minded. These next few days will be the real challenge as the only time I smoked before was during the week when I was just hanging out and watching tv with friends.

    This is day two of me not smoking, and I am determined to make it the second day of the rest of my new life. Sorry for the long post, but it really made me feel a lot better.

    Thank you all in advance for all of your support.
     
  2. TwoStep41

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    Good luck man. Honestly, reading your post reminded me a lot of myself. Perhaps I should indeed take a good look at myself and see what future lies ahead of me. I recently just started smoking habitually and so far I have seen no negative effects. Yet, nights when the boys and I are just smoking could have easily been spent going to bars and trying to pick up chicks.
     
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    been thinking of cutting down myself along with a friend of mine. been smoking daily for years. smoking total for about 7. i don't even want to think of all the money i have wasted.
     
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    I'm cutting down heavily because my relationship with weed seems to have taken a turn for the worse. When I smoke now, I just get edgy, paranoid, negative, and analytical. It simply isn't fun.

    Even though I know this, I still smoke occasionally. I guess I'm psychologically addicted, but it's getting to the point where that doesn't even matter. I just have to stop.

    Biggest problem is that all of my friends blaze. When we get together, that's what we do. Not sure how I'm supposed to deal with that...
     
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    Just do it for the right reasons, friend. I feel that societies negative stance on the greenery somehow subconsciously makes you believe that what you are doing is wrong, hence the paranoia, guilt etc. I have lived in green friendly countries, and its a whole different vibe. Dont let the fear take over.

    I wish you luck though. Its tough. I just watched the basketball diaries and started tripping that I was smoking too much (daily)... Just dont beat yourself up if you relapse, its not the end of the world.
     
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