i've been in love with the same girl ever since i laid eyes on her four years ago. she's not even gay, but bc of her i came out of the closet and 'seduced' her enough to at least kiss me and "date" me for a month or so. she's gorgeous, super smart, and has the hottest toned body i'd ever seen... but i was too young and naive to know what to do about liking the first person of the same sex as me that i blew it (i was weak and needy - basically a turn off). but i've grown up and overcome being so timid and unsure of myself around her that we started all over again as good friends this time (kept the 'in love with her' feeling on the backburner). i'm a pretty 'conservative "lesbian"' now (i've dated only women after i met her, but i wouldn't refuse man meat if there was that connection) i've never used a sex toy before and i've never really thought about doing freaky things. anyway - the other night was supposed to just be a usual hang out of video gaming and other dorky things, but instead after a *few* beers (we were all feeling good, not drunk) 5 of us, including HER, the 2 1/2 year boyfriend (who is very laid back, and trusting- a very cool guy), and two other friends, end up naked in bed. Her, the bf, and I ended up having a 'threesome' despite the other company (we pretty much ignored them). i never thought that she would ever do anything with me because 1.) she had a bf,2.) we both know how i felt for her (even though she was never uncomfortable by it, she calls me her lesbian lover), and 3.) i accepted the fact that we were just friends. she initiated it though - and me and the bf pretty much treated her all night (she returned the favor too of course). the night was greaaat (for us 3 at least, i dont know about the other 2) ...super surreal (i'm conservative remember!!!) but i definitely played it cool and havent even mentioned it or acted different after it all. that group of friends aren't even like that. we're all pretty close, known each other for a while, watched each other be in relationships with other people but not really thinking about being with one of our own. we don't really flirt or are sexual towards each other...it just happened. but next monday, me and her are planning on going out of town to a concert and the boyfriend doesnt want to watch the show but wants to come along to visit some friends at that city. this was all planned before that night happened, but we're planning on getting a hotel after the concert. I WANT IT TO HAPPEN AGAIN!!! i felt like we were kind of holding back that night bc there were two other people (who probably knew that i was thinking i'm the luckiest girl alive that night it happened) in bed with us. i want it to happen again - and nothing to hold us (me) back. .. i just don't know if i can pull it off or if they're thinking the same thing... maybe at the concert i should try to get her drunk and just introduce her to the idea of it again... i know the bf knows i love her, but does he really know to what extent and would he still be comfortable by it if he knew? it's not like i'm trying to be in a relationship with her- it's just the four years of yearning for her that i finally got something! we're all good friends, and he's not the least bit intimidated by or jealous of me- we play video games together... they're not weirded out it happened, but does that mean there's a chance for the second round? *sigh* i don't know what to do... honestly i was planning on sleeping with her concert night if the bf didn't come - the other night was just a surprise...what do you guys think? i really want it to happen again, what are my chances?...they're still up for going to the concert and getting a hotel... should i just go with the flow and see what happens? i'd be so disappointed if it didn't. but then again - would it be weird this time around if I tried initiating it?