Do you find it difficult to accept help, or input from others? I myself find it very hard. Many reasons of which aren't very reasonable or logical but none the less make it hard for me to trust the insight of others or to listen. While I may know on a very conscious level that I haven't all the answers - and so I listen and absorb data, on a deeper level I have an awful time allowing what is said to me to sink in and really reach that core that helps move me into action and towards accentuating a wiser approach to handling certain issues in my life. I'm a stubborn bastard, and a perfectionist, and I'm doing all the things I can to discontinue that behavior - yet I find more often than not I have to learn through painful lessons, and it's not something I can simply decide to do. It's an awful pattern, and a curse. I hate being out of control, and not having answers. It's probably one of the reasons I've worked so hard in my life to find answers. It's a big shortcoming, and yet it has some merits. Overall however It's such a fruitless journey in many ways because I'm always falling short, and always holding myself responsible for things I couldn't possibly know any better on. I can stack up all the knowledge in the world and there is always more, always something else, but if I'm not really alive at the heart - if I can't really let people in, and listen to what they have to offer, I'm just doomed. Does anyone else find it difficult to let down their walls, to trust others insight, and to really deeply feel it's ok to let go of control?