theres this thing that has been bothering me for a long time now. as i am growing up and trying to figure out this world of ours, i notice humans are social animals. we interact with each other because we like to, and it is necessary in terms of wealth. the thing that has been bothering me is this... i am bilingual. my native language is not english. it's russian. but my brain thinks in the english language. when i speak in russian, i dont think at all what im trying to say. my mind is already made up and the words come out almost involuntarily. when i speak english, i concentrate either too hard, or dont pay attention enough to what i say, and often stumble over words, and just have a brain freeze, completely forgetting a word i was supposed to say, to convey meaning and put emphasis on something. because of this i believe i have ADD, because often every little thing distracts me when words are coming out of my mouth. this doesnt happen when i speak short sentences, but i am figuring out non-descriptive speech is not at all the person i really am. i usually have no problems with the english language but i feel like because it is my second language i have to concentrate more on saying the right things and is it because i have ADD that i have a hard time trying to say what i am thinking?