For some reason I honestly think I am becoming depressed. Its my senior year of high school. Up until now I have been living to actually learn, play lacrosse. I was generally interested in a lot of the subjects I was taking, had a 4.0 gpa, but this year is different. My grades have fallen. I know I'm a smart kid but for some reason I just can't wrap my mind about the subjects I am taking these are things I used to be interested in to. Got my first D ever actually got two of them. My preformance in lacrosse has fallen a lot as well. I was voted the pre-season all american for my posistion, but now I feel my team can't even rely on me to make a sub-par preformance come game time. I can't sleep anymore. Its 2:11 am right now and I am not even tired and I have been up for 72 hours. I haven't been in a relationship for 2 years now and I am really bummed about that. In fact there is a girl can't get her out of my mind. Think about her all the time, unfortunately, she isn't interested. This year has sucked entirely and I don't forsee it getting better. I don't know what to think but I just want the turn things around I want to get back to where I was. Most of all I want to win the girl, but thats probably impossible, though she did tell me I could give her a call when she gets back into town over spring break this next week. I dunno what to think, right now the most important thing is that I get back to where I was in school and lacrosse. I really can't lose the scholarship offers that I have. My parents don;t have the money to put me through college and this is pretty much the way I am going to make it. I just don't know what to think any more. So I thought I would post here and get some advice. This is the end of my rant thanks for listening.