So many questions... When does one know it time to cut their losses? When do memories stop playing in one's head? How does one explain to an obdurate person that love isn't just a game? How long should a person keep banging their head against the wall, knowing full well that the end one is trying to achieve just is NOT going to happen? Someone told me today that they are carrying a "house of cards" on their back. What if I knocked it down? What would happen then? Would it be worth it in the end? Can two people who have bad history and a lot of hurt between them wipe the slate clean and start again with a foundation of friendship, knowing that regardless how one tries, there will always be some sort of torment, suspicion as well as memories of what once was and isn't anymore? Is it time to pack up and leave? Just go...one can change spatially, but one cannot run from their memories and what is engraved in their heart and soul. The offer (from my point of view) comes down to this "I'll offer friendship because you know more about a particular thing and I could use that to MY advantage." There would be no feeling of friendship, I would just be used for what I know. Where is the dignity in being used? It would be like going home alone before prom night was over and throwing one's prom dress that took so very long to make and was a labour of love into the blazing fireplace. Then casting oneself on the bed and bawling their head off with hurt and disappointment because the one you love arrived at the prom with another date-- he knew you cared for him, did not care that he is he hurting you, causing your heart to collapse like a house of cards, but he did dance with you...once. Are the crumbs of attention that this person tosses worth it? Then there is the truths that would always fall under suspicion. One would grow extremely weary of always proving the truths with fact. Supplying evidence, documentation, videos, sound recordings, affidavits, and God knows what else. Would my suggestions of raise it an octave, lower it an octave, try it in the key of C, no, try it in G or try it with a bit more more rubato...be received with understanding or be seen as negative criticism? It took just 300 seconds to fall in love...I wonder how long it takes to fall out of love... Dealing with someone who is clinically paranoid, but excruitatingly brilliant and creative is difficult and a task...How much energy would it sap from me? A decision of the heart is never easy...I feel that trying to catch the wind would be just so much easier. Eres tu.