This song is owning me. Yes indeed Im alone again And here comes emptiness crashing in Its either love or hate I cant find in between Cause Ive been with witches And I have been with a queen It wouldnt have worked out any way So now its just another lonely day Further along we just may But for now its just another lonely day Wish there was something I could say or do I can resist anything But temptation from you But Id rather walk alone Than chase you around Id rather fall myself Than let you drag me down It wouldnt have worked out any way And now its just another lonely day Further along we just may But for now its just another lonely day Yesterday seems like a life ago Cause the one I love Today I hardly know You I held so close in my heart oh dear Grow further from me With every fallen tear It wouldnt have worked out any way So now its just another lonely day Further along we just may But for now its just another lonely day It's been about a month since we split. It does seem, in ways, that we never existed. 6 years, and it's so easy to forget when you stay so busy. I think about the ways she's touched and changed my life; the influence that's left a mark on my personality. I'm happier, more relaxed, since the split. However, I cry about it a little each day. We ran into each other downtown last weekend...talk about awkward. Although the split was clean, we both wanted it, it's not any easier. It was a bad relationship toward the end. I've learned SOOO much about what I want and do not want in a person. I can't help but think "only if she...", "only if I..." things might have been different, but I can't change her. It's hard to say goodbye to someone you regarded as your best friend. It's hard to not have anyone to talk to about your day, share your experiences with. She was so perceptive and intelligent, with an incredible sense of humor. No one has ever made me laugh like that. So, here I am, and the world keeps on going. I feel so cold and alone some days that I don't want to go out of the house, or to work. I don't know why I bother checking my phone, she's not calling me. We used to work out or ride our bikes together, and her bikes are still here. I'm not necessarily sad we split, I'm just depressed about losing her as a true friend and positive influence in my life. Someone I could talk to about anything without judgement. Someone who understood my dry, sarcastic sense of humor. Someone who seemingly complimented me in every way. But...I know it wasn't going to work out.