I have an issue with cutting. I know I need help and for a 25 year old woman to cut herself is really fucked up I know but Goddamnit I cannot fucking stop myself. Before I realize what I am doing I am cutting my arm or leg or stomach or whatever I can reach to cut. I've done it to the creases between all of my fingers and toes and while yes it hurts, its also a fucking release. My doctor recommended getting a tattoo or getting something pierced to alleviate some of my self destructive ways, this is after 3 hospital stays for a week or more and 3 years of counselling. Every other aspect of my life is ok except for my mental illness and this cutting bullshit. After I am done I feel stupid but I continue to do it again. I have to hide this from my son and my husband and let me tell you, its hard as fuck to do, especially when my husband sees me naked and notices hundreds of tiny to large cuts all over me. I need help bad and the hospital is only a hurdle to jump through until I can get home and to the nearest sharp object. I fucking hate myself so much right now. I just cut myself 35 times about a half an hour ago and I can't stop crying. It hurts so bad.