ok so we met in high school we liked eachother but where dating others at the time then last semester for me i changed schools and ther she was. soon after we started dating and hangin out, things went well for some time then i dumped her out of the blue i dont know why bumbest thing ever, then a while later i called her up and said sorry lets b friends, soon enough we where dating once again. this time was alright, altho she has a look of "thats a stupid thing" to do or ask or w/e so i stoped doing such things usualy pokes or random acts of childness, ect. all was cool, i've recently moved out on my own i work 1 job and have no real extra money for extra things but i manage, so in paying off current depts my life consited of going to work and sitting at home with a nearly obsolete comptuer. and nothing left of real intrest on the computer to do. so realy i've got nothing ps no tv, when i lived at home i thought it was stupid and i could watch that on my computer anyway so whats the point. so my todo list has consitsed of getting a tv, with cable, and maby a console , but for sure a pc of some sort but 1 thing at a time and ill have money soon next month + anyway.. she likes reading and being alone some times but also summer sports, lake suff, the usual awsome ness most of this i've never done so it was goin to be a 1st for me so im thinkin awsome cant wait this summer is going to Rule i got an awsome girl were gona go to the lake(s) maby a little travel ill get my place established and every thing will be slick eventualy she'll move in right.. well, we went to a movie the other night and when we came to my place after and she didnt wana date any more,im to beoring and we've drifted apart... ok lets set some things here, i've stoped annoying her to try and take up somthin with me eg. dancing, skydiving, and a number of other things. the answer was always na she's been tierd and was workin 2 jobs so i mean i hardly got to see her and we hardly chatted on the phone altho i liked hearing about her days and whats new but she was tierd and i didnt wana keep her up. now shes at 1 job and she's much more alive, but now she says enough... and that we've grown apart... what the Fuck ,i've been waiting to spend quality time with her and now she wants to leave as of now we're "single", but im still REALY attached to her, the worst part is every thing remindes me of her im even renting a suite from her aunt, my posters are from her couse i had none/nothing... i've wonderd if it would all go away if i crashed my car... nope wait her dad is the ambulance supervisor and she could find out i've been in a crash in minutes but i wonder if she'd be there..? i've had trouble working or eating, i've had cold shakes and i feel like i wana throw up i've gaged a few times and tasted... any way in agrement and relization i am quiet beoring and i realy do need somthin to take my mind off her. 2 days later i've signed up for a martial art "aikido" somthin i've been talkin about for some time but never got around to it im having trouble with this one OT, i Realy Realy Seriously want her back should i try to win her back or give up?