uhhhhh, i'll keep this short and add as need be. basically, i wanted to write about how i feel awkward and alone in a society that stresses relationships (however unhealthy they may be). i feel awkward when looking for a woman i'm interested in for a relationship because my last girlfriend i had (3 years ago, almost 4) claimed she was pregnant (possible but unlikely since we didn't have intercourse, and i found out later that she's a liar who came up with the story to manipulate me back into the relationship cuz i broke up with her - sad to say it worked) which chain reacted into a cataclasm of events to me today feeling inadaquate, alone, and unable to help myself. basically, i have nothing good to look back on, and only bad things and memories where i was short minded & lustful. i'm a Christian, and i hang on because i know God has something for me, a plan that will shape the rest of my life to do something glorious for Him. but i hope it's not alone, and that i can get past my own emotions with God's help.