can't stop the tears

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  1. col_panic

    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    i just wrote my wife this:

    wtc

    Monika,

    i woke this morning as many others, slowly stroking my
    erection and thinking of you. i remember you laying
    beside me wearing that little white babydoll and
    wishing you would roll over and lay your leg over
    mine.

    i imagine you putting your knees on either side of my
    shoulders and allowing me to pleasure you with my
    tongue while you take my penis in your mouth. after we
    both climax you are so wet my penis slides easily
    inside you and we make love until your orgasms make me
    spurt again deep inside you.

    i realized this morning that i wake up with this dream
    almost every day. after over a year i cannot stop
    dreaming about making love to you. i felt you deserved
    to know that.

    your husband
     
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  3. Darketernal

    Darketernal Watch: Aria The Origination =)

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    How about expanding on your problem?
     
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    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    i suck. i can't let go of the only woman i have ever loved, even after she has hurt me to the point of accusing me of threatening to kill her and sending me to jail. we are divorcing, i think. i have filled out two sets of papers - one simplified dissoluion and one to file against her. she agreed to file together and then sends me a third set of papers from an attorney.

    i am so torn among love, hate, anger, tenderness, and i can't even tell what else. this sucks. and every morning i wake wanting her. needing her. why the fuck can't i forget her
     
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    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    HOLY SHIT - THAT'S ME!!11 :sad2:
     
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    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    quite right - as i have now learned. it helps to see how others are hurting, but i don't think you appreciate the way unrequited love can break a person down. i am very strong, but death seems like an appealing option sometimes. i am intelligent, but can't explain the rationale of wanting to die over heartbreak. still, it is a very strong impulse.

    i don't know what your problems are. they probably dwarf mine. perhaps i have been given everything and don't know when i should feel lucky. but i hurt too, and this was the place i chose to bare my soul.
     
  8. :rofl: :coolugh:
     
  9. cuz

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    it seems like things are over and they should be, i know you loved her and i get that, but the woman accused you of trying to kill her and tried to put yu in jail! it seems like you are doing the right thing begin apart. maybe try and move on, i know its hard and thats probably not what yu want to hear but its just the truth.... sorry. (not that you even have to listen to me, thats just my opinion)
     
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    no you're right. i just have to make it happen
     
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    vaginarium :eek3: never been here
     
  12. BiffHenderson

    BiffHenderson New Member

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    What's the background on this?
     
  13. BedBunny

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    really,col_panic is hurting, but how did you get to the divorce stage?
    there is a lot more to this story.
     
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    wtfletter.jpg :hsugh:

    cheer up emo kid
     

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