I'm actually kind of scared about this, no like hiding in the dark scared, but worried scared. I don't really know how to explain whats going on, so bear with me. I kinda think its anxiety. I keep gettin this weird feeling inside of me. It doesn't feel empty, but I keep thinking if I eat, it'll go away kind of like I'm hungry. Yesterday was the worst, I felt like me insides literally we're screaming. I could feel it in my throat, which was the craziest thing, cuz I know nothing is there but kind of like if it was a cartoon itd be this shadow thing inside me.... I was going crazy trying to make it stop. I had no clue what to do, and the things that came to mind scared me. I wanted to smoke, drink, or eat, and actually fucking came to mind pretty strongly. Thats what scares me. If I do one of these things and it makes the feeling go away I'm going to keep doing it. I don't want that. I almost had a cig cuz I had some left over from a party ( I only smoke when drinkin) but my lighter wouldnt work, so maybe a blessing in disguise. I got in my car and drove and eventually singing my heart out helped. I got the feeling again tho, not as intense but I feel like I need to do something. I feel like I need to eat and I KNOW I'm not hungry. Now just a little background, there are some things going in my life that make it a little less than peachy keen lately. My SO and I aren't doing the greatest, I've wanted to go out more and be the person I was when we started dating ( I dont have many friends since I've moved to school and I met a girl and we've been hanging out) We've broken up and gotten back together the past four weekends, I don't think this would stress me out much but we live together. I'm broke. that scares and worries me. And what may be the real cause of all this, we just found out my grandma has lung cancer and its pretty bad, if you kno about stages its stage 4. We arent tight, call each other all the time, but she's my grandma and I love her dearly. I don't know whats causing the feeling but I want it to stop sooo bad, it goes away, is lighter, adn then the other night peaked. Any suggestions? Anyone feel this way before? Anyone know what the hell is going on with me?? Also this is very unlike me.