I never cheated on her and would never do that in a relationship since i know how it feels and wouldn't put that on anyone. She said she never does but I always feel she doesn't tell the truth, partially because i'm very paranoid / insecure. Too many weird coincidences pop up with her so I said its over last night - with no conclusive evidence. I know it was dumb, was going through an episode (mild schizophrenic) and I feel absolutely horrible. Now I regret it immensely. This is the 2nd or 3rd time I've done this to her. I already apologized but I don't think thats good enough this time. Def done with relationships. Swinger all the way. Too much hurt.