SRS bittersweet?

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  1. crashspeeder

    crashspeeder Interesting Title

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    my gf and i broke up (friendly breakup) in october, she has a new bf which is cool and i'm happy for her. i still have nobody, hell it took me forever to find her. i recently got promoted at work but am looking for another job regardless since my current job is a dead-end job while i'm looking for a career. i'm currently in school for computer information systems, web programing in particular.

    so what's wrong? well i have no idea. a little depressed due to the GF situation, happy because even though i'm at a dead end job i'm moving up, and i think i'm stressed to hell too. example: yesterday i couldn't go to my second class because i had such a bad headache. i wasn't sick and yet my head was pouding all the way home. i went home and noticed my left eye was RETARDEDLY bloodshot. i figured i was just stressed from work and took a nap followed by sleeping through the night til class this morning. i felt great this morning.

    i have a few interviews lined up for career related jobs and one just fell through but i'm optimistic that i'll get one of them, and if not now then very soon. i guess i'm saying that i have no idea what's going on in my life, it's just all happening and i have no control over it. what would make me happy right about now? a career, still attending school or being done with a degree, but most definitely somebody to share the good and bad times with and the time to spend with them because my school + work schedules right now allow for no time to myself whatsoever.
     
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    of course she IMs me tonight for the first time in ages to make matters worse
     
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    I just got an IM from a girl I was seeing for a while but we havent spoke in months. Of course our simple convo sent me into a spin of thoughts. She lives in fast forward and I really wish she was more patient with some things in life.

    She is one of the most intelligent girls I have ever met but she lets her emotions run her life sometimes. The tragic flaw of most females...
     
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    ^ 2 examples as to why ex's should be deleted from buddy lists, cell phones, and e-mail contacts immediately upon breakup
     
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    i wish i could
     
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    yep hardest thing is to let go
     
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    but also the fact that we broke up on good terms, she lives 5 minutes from my house and we shared a year and a half of our lives together.
     
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    i'm gonna go see her for the first time in 6 months later today. i dunno whether i should even make a move. she may have been a bit of a nut but goddamnit i loved her and i still do. and damn we had good times in bed too.
     
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    i may have just gained a friend with benefits. she didn't want us to do anything because she didn't want attachment....and we ended up making out, feeling eachother up and dryhumping.........hopefully it'll work out for the best.
     
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    ok well good luck wit taht
     
  11. Devilish

    Devilish Remind me AGAIN

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    I know how you feel, but you really need to stop looking back and start focusing more on YOUR future. That girl was in your life for a reason and now she's left. Let it be and move on completely.
     
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    i might as well have my fun while doing it. or do you guys think it's a horrible, horrible idea that should be avoided at all costs?
     
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    its really up to your morals and beliefs. if shes not important in your life anymore, make your own decision for how you want to treat her. others may do differently, but its your call.
     
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    the thing is she'll be going off to college far away and i'm already in college. she said herself that what we did yesterday was fine as long as there's no attachment.
     
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    ok if she's fine with it as well, even better. as long as there's no attachment. ;)
     
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    that's gonna be the hard part...but we'll see how it goes
     

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