So as the title says, I have been pretty depressed lately. I am in college right now (first year) and I'm transferring to a school on the other side of the state in the fall to live with one of my best friends and two of our other friends. I should be pretty happy about that, right? Well, I am just thinking how the school year is winding down and I am going to miss the fuck out of everything where I am now. The new school will only be an hour and a half away and I am going to visit a lot but it won't be the same. I really like where I'll be living next year, so hopefully I'll be happier once I actually get there. I also got a job working at Yellowstone this summer, but I'm declining it because the airfare is pretty expensive and I'd rather work around home all summer and take online classes or something. On top of that, I've been seeing a girl lately and we've gone out and hooked up (nothing more than making out) and I found out recently that she has a boyfriend (that she met online that lives 1500 miles away from us). I really liked her (still like her too ) and I cannot stop thinking about her. I haven't talked to her in a week but I don't even know where to begin talking to her, because she hasn't mentioned a boyfriend before and I found out through a mutual friend that they were going out. She told me "friends" were visiting last weekend but apparently he was down here. I know it's pretty bad that I still like her, and I should just get over her because chances are we won't work out considering 1) their relationship won't end soon because they only talk online mostly, so neither knows what's really happening in each others lives and 2) I'll be moving in august. I smoke weed occasionally and I think that may be part of the depression issue, but I'm not entirely sure. I've been sick as fuck lately so I haven't been doing it as often, but I'd say I usually do it once or twice a week, making sure it doesn't interfere with my main priority (school). I am not really sure why I typed all of this, but I guess I had to get it off my chest and my friends have already heard this shit numerous times throughout the past week so I don't really want to bother them.