Let's see where to do I begin to describe my pathetic existance? Oh yes, we'll start with my home life... I am in my mid-twenties and I still live at home. Not by choice but because I feel I HAVE to. I feel as if something really bad would happen if I left especially to either my grandmother (85) and my schizophrenic mother. Both of them depend on me greatly for help..cleaning the house, run errands..etc. My mother is an alcoholic but has recently quit, I don't know how long that will last. She is currenty on disability and unable to work. She borrows money from me quite a bit. I feel as if I've taken over the parental role with her. My brother is in his mid 30's and never leaves the house (does not work but muches on my grandmother and whatever money my mother comes into). He stays in his room all the time and supposedly reads the bible. He is a very large guy and verbally abuses me. And often times tries to physically intimidate me. If I cry or try to get help with a problem, he will tell me "Shut up. I am sick of listening to you talk. Get over it." My mother goes along with this.. it's almost like she doesn't care anymore. Anyone that knows me knows that I am extremely vulnerable at the moment (I am overloaded with work from college and am looking for a second job to support myself) but that doesn't matter. I am not allowed to take out any "me" time to where I can go out with friends and relax...I must run to their every need. Thus, I don't have much of a social life. I haven't been out on a date in so long... My family doesn't care, they say "Oh what do you want to hang around with guys for? Thats what wh**res do!" I am afaid if I don't change my ways I will be stuck here forever. And be an old maid with absolutely nothing but be stricken years and years of abuse. Someone please help.