I'm going to apologize in advance if I make no sense. I'd also like to say Thank You to whoever reads this start--->finish. Let's see, where to start? How bout some background info... In most of 05, I wondered if I was battling depression. I never saw a specialist or anything, but I talked to a few from Asylum about what was bothering me and what was going on inside my head. I would often catch myself on late night drives alone just listening to music and thinking about stuff. Mostly stuff that had to do with me and what was going on in my life. I also always, constantly, had the memory of me and my ex in my head. We dated for 11months back in 2003 when I was 18, she was my first love and she cheated on me. But it doesn't change the fact that I would still think about her and compare every girl I met to her. Anyway, I was also never a part of any acitivities or a part of any "team." I just wasn't the social type. As gay as this sounds, I had braces until last November, and my teeth situation would always cause me anxiety, especially in a social setting or when I met new people. Therefore, i would avoid direct interaction with people. Anyway, someone on here recommended that I get involved with an activity. I was reluctant at first, but when my friends decided to push me to join a gym, it clicked that this could be exactly what I needed. Fast forward to now. My braces are gone. I visit different colleges every weekend and absolutely love mixin and minglin. I used to be a pretty scrawny kid, nothing to really look at, and the in the past 4 months of going to the gym I have really altered my image and I'm very proud of what I have accomplished all by myself. I've gotten compliments from so many people who have seen me before I started to change myself. So, you might be saying to yourself "What's the problem here?" Well, with all the physical change that's happened, there's also been a lot of mental change going on. A few people recently have said that I am very asshole-ish now, and that my ego has inflated drastically. I brushed it all off until a good girlfriend of mine called me "very shallow" for letting such small changes alter my whole personality. So I started to think about it and I started to wonder if she was right. Once she pointed it out, I kinda analyzed how I've been. I know I've been more confident, but is there that fine of a line between confidence and cockiness? Does it truly make me a shallow person because these physical changes have totally altered who I used to be? Does any of this even make sense? I've just been battling questions in my head and I could really use some input.