Recently my GF and I broke up? And I said some pretty messed up stuff. Last night I made a post but talked it over with my best friend and she said that that would be really messed up. But here's the whole story. Awhile back my GF was getting text's from this guy she knew online. He was asking her when she was going to come see him and stuff like that. That really made me jealous and uncomfortable. She said she'd stop texting the guy and I told her she didn't have to, but she said she wanted to. From that point on I just... I didn't like her talking to her online friends, I didn't say she had to stop, but it bothered me. She told me "If it makes you uncomfortable, I'll stop" and she did. Well about a month ago (we broke up that night), I was looking through her phone becasue I'm a jealous ass and well she was texting that guy again... nothing bad, he didn't even reply. Well anyway, we broke up that night. We said and did some mean things to each other. Like she has a 1 year old kid and she's living at home, has no job experience, doesn't plan to go to college. Well, she tore up this drawing/poem I wrote for her (because I really did/do care about her... I used to be in love with her but it's gone away as of recent)... She tore that up and sent me a picture. Later that night I was so hurt by that that I told her "She'd make a great stripper trying to support her fatherless son". Well, about a week later we kinda worked things out and got back together, but that very sunday we were back togheter one of her online friends was in town that she'd never met. Now she meets people online, that's how she met me... She just messaged me one day. Anyway we met up with him and he was a cool guy. Went and had lunch, he sprang for the whole thing. Well the next day she was acting like everything was normal the whole day. Saying how much she loves me and all that. That same night she calls me up crying telling me she can't stop and hasn't stopped thinking about her friends since they met yesterday (this bothered me alot since we went and had sex/made love about an hour after we met him she said she wasn't thinking about him though). Well we got in a big fight again and I told her some really messed up things again. Like the three worst things i said were "She should give up her son for adoption and kill herself" "She she should get raped and thrown into a ditch" and "She should burn in hell" (she's not baptised....). Now, I'm not arguing that what I said was FUCKED up. You know, I now wish that'd I'd never met her because I said those horrible things. It was very wrong of me. I didn't even mean them... I was so hurt at the times. I'd never been that hurt before. This is the first girl I'd ever told I loved (she told me she was in love with me first). But do you guys think I'm a bad person. My best friend has said she thinks less of me for the things I said and I don't really blame her; but am I?