Ever since I came to understand how and what adrenaline is and what it does I have become addicted. Happiness works to an extent, but to have the rush is far more greater to me. For example I used to skateboard and that gave me the rush of hurting myself or coming out with a nice trick. I then took up gambling. I started with poker. It's a pattern that I see emerging. I'm scared that in order to feed the addiction you always have to risk more each time. Then came cars. Now I have a huge addiction to cars and to own my frist one out of college is a dream to me. I have been in two accidents. One my fault and one that isn't. Either way I personally think that I should've been dead a long time ago. I tend to take a lot of risks. The scary thing is it isn't to prove anyone wrong or to look cool in front of social groups. It's to impress myself. Show myself that you can take it to the next level. I recently have found a way to make money with sports gambling. Now I have 10k that I have earned in the past two summers of work and I'm considering putting 30% towards this endevor with the hopes of making profit. I guess this is kind of a rant, but I'm wondering if it is common to be addicted to adrenaline. It seems that no matter what I do it all involves being on the edge of life and if I'm not there then I'm not alive in my own opinon. Is this bad? Is this just part of my lifestyle and others choose different routes? I guess it's has come to my attention now that it must be getting pretty bad. I think I said this, but I just fear that I'm going to take it to far and I'll die from it. I'm also not sure if this is related, but whenever I get girlfriends or girls that come close to me they tend to help limit myself as for some reason I listen to them more so than myself. Does this make sense? Any ideas ot?